That about sums up the last two months for me. So much has happened and changed in my life and my family's life. When I am going through a difficult time or situation, I sometimes do not stop and see what God is actually doing in that situation. It is not until things have settled and I look back, that I can see how God was working things out. While I'm in the middle of things, I am very confident that Jesus is walking right beside, helping me get through things. I just need to stop and take it in then and not wait until later.
My parents were able to spend Easter with us. They arrived the Wednesday before so we had a couple of fun days to just visit before the Easter weekend. Easter Sunday I planned to have a single gal from church and the pastor's family out for dinner and an egg hunt. Planned is the word here.
On Good Friday, we went to visit my husband's mother in the nursing home. She wasn't doing good at all that day and hardly talked to us. We didn't stay long. On Saturday, we got a call from the nursing home saying that she was going fast and the family should come. So my dh and his dad drove over at 10 am and the BIL made it down here about 3 pm. It was a tough day for the guys. I had cancelled the plans for Easter Sunday. We went to bed at 11:30pm. I couldn't sleep that night and laid in bed praying. The phone rang at 12:30 am. My first thought was "who was calling at that time of night" and before I could even finish it, I thought "oh, no" and was headed for the phone. Sure enough, it was my FIL calling to say that Roger's mom had passed away.
Easter is to be a joyous day. And in a way it was for us. We were saddened that we didn't have her with us anymore, but very glad that she wasn't suffering any longer. We attended our church's Easter service and the kids had a small egg hunt in the house. The next three days were a whirlwind of planning a funeral, something my husband and I had never done before. But we made it through. My parents stayed until after the funeral and my aunt and uncle came up for it and stayed through till the weekend, just to visit with us.
The week before Easter, I had received an email from the Elementary School Principal asking if I would be able to sub as an aide in the Resource Room until the end of the school year. I had emailed her on that Saturday before Easter and told her I could start on that Tuesday. Then I had to email her back, telling her I could start a week later. It all worked out in the end. So, I have been working full-time, 5 days a week for the last month. That is something I haven't done since I got married. It has been an adjustment for everyone, but we are managing pretty well. The ironic thing is, I had applied for this position a year ago and didn't get it. Now it is looking like I may be able to continue in this position next year too.
I've learned that God's timing is not the same as ours. His is much better. I don't know that a full-time job a year ago would have worked as well for my family. I think the opportunity to sub at the school and seeing if this was a position I would enjoy full-time helped in the decision. I enjoy working with the kids a lot and it seems that they enjoy me.
Waiting on God takes a lot of patience too. I've found that out over the last 2 months also. And there again, His timing worked everything out just fine. I'm so thankful I was patient enough to wait on Him and not jump the gun and try to do things on my own. I probably saved a good friendship by doing so.
"I waited patiently for the Lord;
he turned to me and heard my cry."
Psalm 40:1
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